My whole life I have loved to write. I loved to write stories and papers for school and on occasion I would pretend I was an author and make up storybook beginnings. I might not have excelled in math or science in school (lol) but English was always my favorite course.
For so many years I struggled deeply with feeling like I didn’t hear God or that He didn’t speak to me. I just could not figure out how to hear His voice and I compared my ability to hear Him to everybody else. I tried everything. And my “inability” to hear God was the cause of many seasons of doubt in His very existence. This continued to be a theme in my life for years.
In 2017, I made the decision to take some time off from college. I was struggling with deep depression and suicidal thoughts. I was lost and felt purposeless and, although I knew that God existed, I struggled believing that He would want anything to do with me personally.
During this season of my life is when God started writing to me.During the 8 months that I spent at home, God completely liberated me from depression (praise the Lord!), spoke life into me and reminded me of my gifts. And He revealed some new ones! He brought a woman named Evelyn into my life who showed me how she heard from God through writing and journaling and she encouraged me to give it a try.
It started off small. I would ask him simple questions and I would write down the first thing I heard Him saying to me. But quickly it grew into all sorts of questions about the future, about relationships, about verses in the bible I didn’t understand and so much more. I finally felt like I had discovered how I heard from Him personally, and it couldn’t have come at a better time. I started writing fervently.
Around 6 months into my time off from college, in the summer of 2018, I went to a worship school at Bethel in Redding. The weeks I spent there shaped me in a lot of ways and grew my confidence in myself and my relationship with the Lord. On one of the days I was there, I felt God pulling me to go ask for prayer from their intercessors. I walked into the room and she prophesied and spoke so much truth into my life.
I didn’t think much about it then, but she received a vision from God of me writing a book of love letters to God’s children.Two weeks later, at a church service in Austin, I was worshipping in the back of the room and a woman walked up to me and started praying for me. She stopped me and said, “does a book of love letters mean anything to you?” Of course, I started laugh crying. I just love when God speaks to us in such specific and undeniable ways, someone else had just spoken this over me only two weeks before! She shared that she had seen a vision of a book of love letters that had been written by me and that the book was sealed with God’s glory.
This started the beginning of me writing love letters.These letters began as a way for God to minister to me. I started writing God’s love letters to myself, asking God what He thought about me, what He loved about me, what my future was. These letters walked me through it all.
And then God started giving me names.So I started to write to strangers, too. I knew nothing about these people but God spoke love to them, encouraging them and confirming things about their future. At first I was on fire, writing as many as I could and searching for the people to give them to. But then, slowly but surely, life started getting in the way. The letters became fewer and fewer and eventually I stopped writing them.
But I never forgot the prophesy.
While we were in Idaho a few weeks ago, a couple of girls on my team met this woman named Candace. Candace ended up inviting us to her friend Pat’s house to treat us to what we thought would just be lunch. When we arrived though, these two women not only had food for us, but they also had water basins to wash our feet and tiaras to place on our heads. They walked us through communion and then prayed and prophesied over us. It was such a gift and we left feeling so loved and so filled up. While Candace was prophesying over me, she said, “There is a psalmist anointing on your life, Annie. A beautiful gift and He wants to use that gift to break the yokes of heaviness and bondage and chains off of people.”
Immediately, I thought of the love letter prophesy that God had spoken over me years ago. It was like a new fire was sparked within me. I left this day walking in so much freedom and could feel in my spirit that I was walking into a new season with God. And I left feeling so much excitement and anticipation, knowing that God had love letters He wanted to give to His children.
The very next day, my team and I prepared to do an ATL (Ask The Lord) day. We prayed and worshipped together beforehand, asking God what He wanted to do that day and I felt God tugging on my heart to write love letters to His people.
He gave me the names Anthony, Sarah and Sam.I’m writing this blog in multiple parts because it continues to get longer and longer, but I will let y’all know that God showed up in some BIG ways. Keep an eye out for my next few blogs, I can’t wait to share the stories of each of these letters with you 🙂
The day after our ATL day in Idaho, we went to the place we had been volunteering the past two weeks and a woman named Doty asked if she could prophesy and pray over us. Of course we said yes. As she prophesied over me she said, “there would be these love stamps all over her that just says that the sender is delivering her to the right address. With each divine appointment that she is set to go into, people would see that stamp and know that they’re loved, that they’re cared for. I just see that the kind of person that you’re going to be, I see letters being sent out.” My team and I immediately started laughing, amazed at the fact that this was being prophesied over me again, especially right after the ATL day we had had the day before. I am so thankful that our God is an encourager and that He never tires of reminding us of our purpose.
At this point, God has made it incredibly clear to me that He is calling me to write love letters to His children. It’s been prophesied multiple times and already there have been so many incredible encounters that I can’t wait to tell y’all about in the blogs to come! I don’t know fully what God wants to do with these letters, but for now I will remain faithful in writing for the names that He gives me. Keep an eye out for the stories of the letters written in Idaho! I am so so blessed that God gives me the opportunity to be a part of them!
To be continued 🙂
Thank you all for your continued prayers and support. I am so blessed by each and every one of you. I keep you all in my prayers!
Much love and many blessings,
Annie
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P.S. if any of you would like a love letter (either for yourself or a friend), please don’t hesitate to reach out to me and send me your email or address to send you one! It would bless me so much to be able to send some out 🙂
